15. The Phrase that Turns in My Head

I know what I can't get over - still. It's the fact that I know that I wasn't good enough for him. He had said (although, who knows the truth to this statement) that he liked me but couldn't imagine us going out.

You can like people. Admire them and if so, pluck up the courage to ask them out. You never hear of people going around telling people that they like you, spend time with you and then go I can't imagine us 'formally' going out. It's a different thing to say that you're not the type to fool around, do it and then say that you can't imagine us together - giving the impression, for one to only conclude that they weren't simply good enough. Not good enough to bother further.

It's a lost cause.

I wasn't good enough - cuts into me deeply. I just can't stop thinking about it. I just want it to stop. Make it stop. I'm a victim of my own naivety too.